The night not to be slp

The very 1st day of Chinese new year.
I'm using ipad2 to type this, so can't convert it to Chinese.

Actually tonight should not sleep. In our tradition, we use to call it "shou ye"
This tradition is because of if we , youngster didn't slp at this time, we will able to bring up luck to family, make them healthier and phosphorus.

Actually very exhausted today, especially fill my tummy during the dinner.
Wine +beer, make me sleepy.
But when I try to slp, I can't stop my self thinking of chian wun.
This is the very 1st time she oversea at outside alone without parents guidance.
I felt her loneliness and homesickness.

I shouldn't so serious talk to her last 2days.
Haiz, guilty conscious just fill up my heart.
She facing academic difficulty, and she actually wan find someone to talk.
But just bcs of im her x,She can't so open heart to talk with me.
She said she miss me all the time.

Yeap, I do miss u cw.
But I really not able to provide so much warm to u.
U need to be strong, be tough.
Sorry that I still miss u.

I will pass all of my wishes to u.
Perhaps it could help u to overcome this difficulty u facing now.
I can't do anything regarding to ur problem, but I will pray hard, and pass my wishese to u.
I know the feeling of cant reunion with the one u love.
But pls, pls be strong.

I hope this "shou ye" not only for my parents.
And also for my this beloved ex-girlfriend.
Althought it didn't help anything, but if god exist I wish, i wish u can help her.
I pray hard.

I always be ur side, but just not physically, initially